Author Archives: Pati L Rader

I am learning more and more since Kens passing that I see things differently than you and you probably see things differently than me. Much of what I see is processed through a brain that has experienced life and gained an understanding or perception of a vast number of things. Today I felt compelled toContinueContinue reading “What do you see?”

I would need to look at my journal or calendar to get a clue of what I did last year on October 13. Some days since his passing March, 10,2021 stick in my mind along with what I did or who I was with. But last year in the ebb and flow of grief andContinueContinue reading “Celebrating a First, Remembering a Second… October 13th”

Our first day of fall in Northwest Arkansas was met with a drop in temperature to 70s from nearly 100 the days before. The wind blew and with it a noticeable change of seasons. Of course two days later heat was felt again, but the winds of change are indicators that Fall is in theContinueContinue reading “Fall is in the Air… Welcomed Winds of Change”

“Listen I am speaking loud and clear.” Those words seem to ring in my ears early one morning. As if God himself were saying to me or impressing my thoughts, “I have been speaking to you all along but you haven’t been listening”. Ouch! I have been asking, searching, crying out, even dictating at timesContinueContinue reading ““Listen…””

While it has been a bit of a pause in sharing on this blog, just letting you know… I am still here. Tanyard Creek Trail, Bella Vista Arkansas Summer 2022 Through the hot summer months I welcomed the break of showers, listening to the roaring thunder and watching the display of brilliant light in theContinueContinue reading “I am still here…”

It’s 11:00 P.M. and I just now realized it’s the 10th of the month, 16 months since Ken died. After reaching a year since Ken‘s passing, the date of the month since March 10,2021 seems to be slipping by in this second year without as much heart wrenching experience. I am adjusting each month moreContinueContinue reading “Dates Slipping By…”

“Trees” Ken would often say in his last few weeks of life, Grandchildren became trees breakfast became trees he would point out the window and say let’s go see the trees. And sometimes trees did mean trees to Ken. Just a few months before his death and before we knew that he had brain cancerContinueContinue reading ““TREES“…”

Today my son let me know about a senior expo nearby. My first thought was oh yeah I’m a senior why not go. A little backstory is that for many years while in California I was on the presentation side of such expos and events. So I knew what to expect and looked forward toContinueContinue reading “Unexpected Significant Encounters …”